Because she said it
You know restraint is a wonderful thing that you learn in the military.
And I am career military, so go figure.
But today I was tempted. Temptation had its claws around my throat threatening to suffocate me if I should remain silent.
And I wouldn't have, but the tragedy that ended the day prevented me from saying anything.
Denial is a wonderful thing, too. I was into denial for so long that a nearly believed it myself. But now everything is out in the open.
And why is that? All of that is, as it is now, because she said it.
People think I am a very brave man, faced with danger I laugh and joke.
The truth is the only time I really feel alive is when the adrenaline of fear runs through my veins.
Or when she smiles at me.
I'm not a romantic kinda guy, but with her? With her all the roses in the world and every candle I could lit combined with the best poetry human kind ever came up with wouldn't be enough. Not for her.
But today I was tempted to try.
Revelation tends to be a good thing, generally. But why do the two of us always get ourselves into these embarrassingly revealing situations?
What I said today was, as usual, the coward's way out. I might be a brave man when it comes to battle, but I'm a coward when it comes to feelings. And she's a coward, too. When feelings are concerned, I mean. But today she was brave, she stood before me trying to make me understand what the hell she was talking about and all I did was making it harder for her.
And instead of cowering back she confronted me, it, love.
I know I love her and now I know that she loves me too, because she said it.
FINI