"No Fear" By Elise Hudson

Title: Letter Three: No Fear

Author: Elise Hudson

Category: Sam and Jack angst

Spoilers: None

Season/sequel: Third in the 'Letter' series, year 2000

Rating: PG

Content Warnings: None

Summary: How does Jack reply to Sam's letter?

Disclaimer: The characters aren't mine, they belong to MGM, Double Secret, and Gekko. No copyright infringement was intended and the original characters, situation, and story are properties of the author. This story cannot be archived without author's permission.

Archive: Sam and Jack, Heliopolis, all others please ask.

Comments: To C, who made me come up with what Jack did to Sam. And feedback please, it makes me write more :>

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Letter Three: No Fear
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5/5/2000

To Sam,

I'm sorry for all that I did to you and I can't stop apologizing, not until I've explained why I did it. I got scared. Yep, Colonel Jack O'Neill USAF got scared. My last proper relationship was Sara and look how that turned out. I didn't want the same thing to happen to us, I didn't want to hurt you. That's why I didn't turn up to our anniversary dinner. I got scared that I was going to muck everything up like I always do. So then I started avoiding you. I thought if I wasn't around you I couldn't muck it up. And then I started blowing off dates, hanging out with friends instead - all to avoid putting my size twelve air force regulation boot in my mouth.

I guess I was scared of commitment, scared of admitting how much I love you and then losing you. And I did. Now I know the pain of losing you and it's unbearable. I need you, Sam. I hate feeling this pain and I know I deserve it, but please take me back. I'll never treat you wrong again, I swear.

I'm not scared anymore.

Please meet me.

Love, Jack

XX

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