Title: Renewed Memories

Author: Eva

Email: astroevax@hotmail.com

Rating: NC-17

Category: Missing Scene

Season/Sequel: 4 – Beneath the Surface

Spoilers: BTS

Archive: SJD, SJAdult

Summary: My interest was peaked when I read the discussion about Sam being a virgin… this little idea came to me completely from nowhere but it seemed to fit.

Disclaimer: All publicly recognisable characters and places from the television show Stargate SG1 are the property of MGM, World Gekko Corporation and Double Secret Productions. No money was made from this little piece from my imagination :)

Author's notes: I just couldn't see Sam being a virgin but I really wanted to write the story because it sounded so tempting. You wouldn't believe how quickly this was written once I began reading posts at this group! It's my first nc-17 fic, heck it's my first fic! Hope I did okay… let me know.

**

"Where are you taking me?"

"Shh. Just be quiet or you'll wake the others." His voice hushed her question gently.

"Are you going to get us in trouble?" her tone was teasing and light but he could also detect a hint of nervousness. The penalty for sneaking out after dark was severe and definitely not desirable.

"Only if you keep talking." He joked, "Just a little further."

"This better be good Jonah. I'm tired."

"It is. I promise."

Thera remained silent for the rest of their short walk through the dimly lit tunnel. Jonah had returned from his shift and pulled her from her nice warm bed intent on showing her some marvellous discovery, the details of which he had kept a surprise. She tightened her hand on Jonah's and quickened her pace so that she could lean against his warm body in the chilled air as they moved along.

Noticing her discomfort Jonah shifted and pulled his hand from hers to slip his arm around her shoulders and pull her closer, "It's not much further."

Thera nodded, despite her complaining she really didn't mind the distance or the lateness of the hour. She was spending time with the only man that seemed worth any time at all in her opinion. Jonah was fast becoming more than a friend and Thera knew that sooner or later something would result from the simmering tension between them. Glancing at Jonah, Thera noted his tight muscles, handsome looks and confident air. Her companion's favourable exterior didn't help the tension much either.

"We're here." Jonah stopped them at the junction between two interconnecting tunnels.

Thera frowned seeing only a crossroads that led into darker abandoned tunnels, "I don't understand. There's nothing here."

"Look up." For some reason that saying held a note of familiarity but Thera pushed the thought aside and followed Jonah's lead.

As she did her breath caught in her throat. High above her head was a small square of clear glass that gave a clear view of the night sky. The darkness that attracted her eyes was pin pricked with little dots of bright white light. The small scrap that she could see was so amazing to Thera that she declined to notice the appreciate gaze Jonah was sending her way, awed not at the sky but at the wonder Thera held.

"It's beautiful." Thera said softly.

"Stars." Jonah blurted out.

"What?"

"The little dots of light are called stars." Jonah explained.

"Oh." Thera said content in what she believed was her first view of the sky.

They stood for a while entwined tightly together against the cold as they stared at the sky. Eventually Jonah moved and urged Thera back towards the tunnel to return to the living quarters. The air was frigid and neither needed to fall ill during a time when every worker was needed.

"How did you know what the dots of light were called?" Thera asked quietly as they continued back to their beds.

"I don't know. It just came to my mind when I saw them."

"Another memory?"

"Yeah."

Thera paused and Jonah watched as she debated a question over in her mind, "Do you remember me from your memories?"

Her voice was quiet and Jonah responded in the same hushed tone, "I don't see memories of you in my mind but whenever I see you I feel like I've seen you before."

"Oh." Thera smiled tightly. It was too much to hope for that they were together in their memories that Carlin seemed convinced was their real selves. Perhaps they didn't even know each other, or were even enemies that despised the very sight of the other.

"It's not like when I see Carlin though." Jonah continued oblivious to Thera's musings.

"What do you mean?"

"When I see you there's recognition but also something else…"

"Like what?" Thera asked hesitantly.

"Like a sort of link," Jonah watched as Thera's eyes brightened, "like the link lovers share."

They stopped walking down the tunnel and simply looked at each other for a moment. Thera blinked and smiled, "I feel that way towards you too."

"Then maybe we are lovers in our other lives." Jonah smiled encircling his arms around the slender woman and drawing her closer. Their faces came together naturally and Jonah could feel Thera's lips move against his own as she smiled.

"Yeah. Maybe."

Hesitantly Jonah pushed his lips firmly against Thera's sharing a light kiss that was reminiscent of a first kiss shared between adolescents. They broke away softly but rejoined quickly this time for a deeper kiss. Jonah pushed his questing tongue against Thera's lips and they parted to allow him entrance to her mouth. Her hands clutched at his back as his tongue duelled with her own and brushed against the sensitive recesses of her mouth.

Jonah's own hands moved up against Thera's sides, lightly touching the hidden body beneath her bulky clothing. He felt Thera stiffen slightly as he brushed the sides of her breasts and broke away from her lips to look into her face.

"Thera? You okay?" he asked slightly breathless.

"Yeah. It's just we shouldn't do this here." She licked her lips and Jonah felt a stirring in his groin. At least she hadn't said that she wanted it to stop.

"Storage room on the next level?" Jonah suggested. Everyone knew what that particular room was meant for and there would be no mistaking Jonah's meaning. He stepped back slightly from Thera indicating that if she didn't want to, they wouldn't go.

Thera looked at him for a moment before nodding, "Okay."

Jonah smiled at the blush that coloured her cheeks. Minutes later they pushed open the door to the closest and Jonah turned as he shut it pressing Thera's body against the hard surface and covering her mouth with his. She moaned deep in her throat as this time she explored his mouth with her tongue and set about running her hands along the hard muscles she could feel against his tunic.

Jonah edged his hands down along her body until he could grasp her thighs. Gently he urged them up around his hips bringing their lower bodies into closer contact. He groaned as her pelvis shifted against his groin and fought against the overwhelming desire that threatened to overtake him.

Thera gasped as Jonah broke their kiss and moved his lips to press frantic kisses against her jaw. Arching her throat in response, Thera moaned as Jonah moved his lips to her delicate skin, nipping her lightly and leaving wet marks that cooled in the freezing air. His hands slipped beneath the clothing covering her torso and ran along her smooth skin edging up towards her breasts.

Still nuzzling her neck he pulled the woman in his arms away from the door and guided her to lie gently on the pallet set out for such occasions by the workers. He pulled up slightly from her held in place by the legs that still gripped him tightly from his waist. He eased them down to the pallet and stared at the beauty before him. Her cheeks were flushed and her wide blue eyes held a greenish tint. Leaning forward he captured her lips again pressing her into the mattress. Not one to comply quietly, Thera shifted beneath his heavy body, rotating her pelvis against his crotch and giggling in her throat at his hiss of surprise.

Sitting up again from her Jonah grasped the hem of her heavy over shirt and helped her ease her upper body from it and the grey shirt beneath it. Lying back down Thera was clad only in the white tube that supported her breasts. Groaning Jonah slid his hands underneath the tight material and eased it over her head.

Thera felt a blush creep up her chest and reached up instinctually to cover her exposed flesh. It was suddenly all too much for her and a thought came unbidden to her mind. This was all new; she may have felt confident before but that feeling of self-assurance was rapidly disappearing along with her clothing. Jonah grasped her wrists gently trying to pry them away from her chest but she held firm.

"Thera?" he questioned softly and sat back on his heels gazing down at her.

"I…uh…" Thera trailed off and sat up feeling vulnerable lying down.

"What is it Thera?" Jonah asked patiently trying to ignore the steady throbbing of his lower body.

"I…" She took a deep breath and began again, "I don't remember doing this before."

Jonah's eyes widened in understanding and his mind spun dizzily, "You don't remember a first time?"

"No. It all seems kinda new." She whispered looking down at her covered chest suddenly ashamed, "Do you?"

"Not exactly but I know this isn't my first time… I just know." Jonah said.

"I see." Thera said and she carefully extracted one of her arms from around her chest and reached for her discarded clothing.

"I better go."

"Why?" Jonah was startled by her sudden withdrawal.

"Because…" Thera trailed off.

"I still want this Thera. If you don't want this then we'll stop… but if you do, I see no reason to stop." Jonah finished clumsily.

Thera looked at him carefully, "I do want this."

"Then give me your hands." Jonah said holding out his own. Thera frowned knowing that by giving him her hands she would be exposing her uncovered body to him.

"It's okay Thera. See." Jonah pulled his own layered shirts away from his body, "You'd be surprised at how easy this whole thing is."

She gave a nervous laugh and hesitantly held out her hands to Jonah. He grasped them tightly holding her gaze with his eyes before letting his eyes trail over her breasts.

"Beautiful." He whispered and letting go of her hands he pushed her back down gently to the covers.

Pressing wet kisses to her collarbone he eased his way towards her chest. Thera tensed as his tongue encircled her left nipple and lathed it gently. She let out a soft noise as his mouth covered her nipple and then sucked on the sensitive skin. Thera arched her back and grasped at the covers with white knuckled hands. Jonah slowly let the nipple fall from his mouth, pressing a soft kiss against the damp skin before turning his attentions to her other breast.

As Jonah finally finished paying homage to her breasts, Thera rolled them over so that she straddled his waist with his back pressed into the pallet. She breathed deeply smiling at the aroused look her lover directed at her as her breasts moved in time with her breaths. Leaning forward she nipped at the skin of his neck and moved further until she was level with one of his nipples. Curiously she ran a gentle finger along the peak watching as it hardened and lengthened beneath her eyes. She pressed gentle kisses to his nipples and chest enjoying the reaction of Jonah as he fought to control his lust whilst a very desirable woman was squirming over his body rubbing certain body parts that were screaming for attention.

Thera sat up and moved experimentally against Jonah's lower body smiling as he groaned and arched his head into the mattress. Hooking her fingers into the waistband of his pants Thera pulled them, and his underwear off in one quick movement. Returning back up his body Thera's eyes widened as she encountered his impressive length. Sitting on his thighs she reached a tentative hand out to touch his semi hard penis but shrieked as Jonah rolled them again trapping her beneath his body.

He kissed her briefly then trailed his hands down to her lower body and swiftly removed her pants and underwear. Slowly he ran his hands along the smooth skin of her thighs and stopped, helping her to shift so that she was comfortably lying underneath his body cradling him with her hips. He leant down and kissed her deeply, ravishing her lips and cupping her breasts with his hands.

"Jonah?" Thera gasped as they broke away. Her voice sounded unsure and slightly nervous.

"It's okay Thera. Just let me." He shifted down her body kissing and exposed flesh he encountered on his way until he came level with the small patch of pubic hair that covered her.

She trembled as he hovered over her for a moment not touching the sensitive skin but allowing his warm breath to tickle her lightly. Slowly he ran a finger along the length of her folds and parted them exposing the pink nubbin and hidden entrance to her body. He stroked the lips with a gentle finger and pressed lightly against her clitoris feeling her jerk sharply in response.

"Jonah." Thera's voice came out as a strangled moan.

"Trust me."

He pressed his lips onto the small bundle of nerves kissing it gently hearing her pleasant sigh in response. Assured that she wasn't going to stop him he repeated the action this time letting his mouth cover her clitoris fully and sucking lightly. An array of words fell from Thera's lips and she felt a tight coil begin to unravel in the pit of her belly.

Jonah caressed her clitoris with his lips lightly while using his fingers to manipulate her sex until he was sure he could enter her easily without fear of hurting her. Increasing the suction with his mouth he pressed a gentle finger towards her entrance relieved when it entered without hindrance.

"Oh…" Thera's hips shifted and ground against his mouth and hands.

Adding a second finger Jonah began thrusting them in and out gently stretching the tender opening with the action.

Thera felt the tight coil in her belly suddenly spring apart letting forth a mindless feeling of intense pleasure that spread from her belly down to her toes. She gasped for breath feeling her skin tingle and legs shake as Jonah kissed her lower region one last time before moving up her body and hugging her to him. Thera kissed him and swept his mouth with her tongue tasting her own juices.

"Oh… wow." Thera smiled as they broke away from each other. Her insides felt warm and her body slightly weak but she was determined to return the favour to her lover.

They kissed deeply and Thera carefully pressed a cool hand to Jonah's penis. He moaned and rubbed against her hand. She circled her hand against him and Jonah grabbed her wrist and pulled it up.

"Thera?" he asked her softly and she gave him a gentle smile and nodded.

"Just relax." He guided himself to her entrance and held her gaze as he pushed gently.

Thera let out a deep breath as she felt the head of his penis enter her. Smoothly Jonah pressed himself into her body until he was seated to the hilt. She moaned as her muscles stretched to accommodate his length and girth. Jonah held still as her body adjusted, lightly running his hands along her smooth skin as she breathed deeply.

"Thera?" Jonah whispered. The waiting was almost too much for him to take and he longed to achieve the release Thera had experienced earlier.

"It's okay." She smiled.

Jonah groaned in relief as he finally allowed himself to thrust his hips against hers. Thera gasped and arched up towards him feeling the sensations once again begin to gather in her stomach.

Jonah thrust strongly into Thera keeping them in rhythm with her counter thrusts. They moved together smoothly, almost with practised ease and Thera felt her body respond to the movements. She gripped his shoulders with her delicate hands running her nails lightly against his back not hard enough to cause pain but enough for him to be aware of her presence.

Jonah's hands gripped her hips tightly holding her steady but not so much that she couldn't thrust up against him. He caressed her inner passage with his penis feeling it's wet, snug walls grip him tightly in response. He moaned against his lover's neck and licked the sweat that had gathered in the hollow of her throat.

"Oh God." Thera whimpered as Jonah's thrusts suddenly began to lose rhythm and she felt her own body begin to lose control as they both strived to for their release.

Jonah held his reactions as best he could and reached down to lightly brush his thumb against her clitoris. With a strangled cry Thera ground her hips against him as her muscles clenched tightly around Jonah's erection.

"Jack!"

The word didn't register in Jonah's brain and he concentrated solely on keeping still and not allowing himself release before Thera was satisfied. When Thera's loud cries softened to occasional whimpers Jonah's hips moved again and he thrust faster and harder this time. Thera's body was willing and pliant; she whispered words of comfort as he began to pant in anticipation of his own release. His body suddenly tensed uncontrollably and his breath became ragged as every nerve in his body experienced the sweet agony of his orgasm.

"Sam!"

The foreign name was lost amongst the gasps and pants of the two lovers and Jonah's hips continued a gentle thrusting until he slipped from her body. They rolled together onto the pallet with Jonah spooned behind a sleepy Thera.

"C'mon. We have to get back to the sleeping quarters." Jonah nudged his companion after a short time spent in silence. Thera nodded and slowly sat up, not worrying about the way Jonah's gaze lingered on her naked body.

They dressed quickly and quietly headed back to the sleeping quarters, slipping discreetly into their opposing bunks. Reaching out a hand Thera whispered Jonah's name. Smiling softly he grasped her hand with his own and they drifted off to sleep content with the small contact they shared.

**

Samantha Carter sat staring unseeing at the empty cup of coffee that sat on the commissary table in front of her. The eating venue had long since been abandoned as people left for their homes or for a quiet bunk on base. She had tried to sleep like the other normal people on base but the sleep just wouldn't come. Her mind kept spinning in circles as it had been doing for the past week since they had been liberated from their memory stamps and returned to earth.

She had managed to evade the Colonel for the entire week they had been back. She knew she would have to face him sooner or later especially as the Sg1 had their debriefing with Hammond scheduled for that morning.

A shadow fell over the table and Sam looked up, straight into the face of the man that had been occupying her thoughts.

"Colonel."

"Major."

He sat at the table and Sam lowered her gaze to the top. She felt a blush rise in her cheeks. How could she face him after what they had done? How could she look at him the same now that they each knew the intimate details of each other's bodies?

"This is… difficult."

Sam snorted, "You don't say."

"You can look at me you know." She felt his gaze on her and it seemed as though he was burning her skin with his eyes.

"I know… but I can't right now."

"Fair enough." Jack sighed, "We have nothing to be ashamed of Carter."

"But we-"

"We didn't know about the regs. It was simply two individuals expressing their… feelings for each other." The Colonel said sounded suspiciously rehearsed.

"I know that."

"Then what's the problem?"

"I… I almost wish that they had removed the memories from us." Sam said, "Whenever I see you now…"

"I know. God, I know." Jack ran a tired hand over his face, "It will fade Carter."

"I don't want it too." The words came out of her mouth before she realised she had said them.

Her gaze went up to catch his reaction and she caught his eyes. Once again her mind assaulted her with the tempting images in all their technicolour detail. She blushed.

"The memories were good weren't they?" Jack grinned and Sam felt some of the tension in her chest ease.

"Yeah… and-" Sam paused, "It wasn't my first time."

"Oh?"

"I… it had just been a while that's all." Sam said blushing an even deeper shade of red.

"No need to explain Carter."

"Just thought we needed to clear that up… can't have you thinking…" Sam pressed her lips together, "Sorry. Lack of sleep. Makes me say stuff that I wouldn't normally admit sir."

"Quite all right Carter." Jack grinned, "Now go get some sleep."

"Yes sir." Sam turned to leave the room.

"Sam?"

"Yeah?"

"Are we going to be okay?"

"We will be sir. We will be."

**

The End