Jack O'Neill stepped through the Stargate onto the embarkation ramp in the Stargate Room, he was the last through the Gate and it closed with a whoosh.
"Sg-1 What the hell happened to you."
"Mud slinging contest sir." He explained
"What?" Exclaimed hammond
"What the Colonel means Sir is we were attacked by a pre-stone age group as we came out of the Stargate. They started throwing mud and rocks at us. We had to retreat from the Stargate and get our bearings. Once we had we managed to divert the Savage's attention we got back to the stargate but not before we were covered in mud by a sudden rainstorm which created a small mudslide right on top of us." Replied Sam
"Alright SG1 get yourselves cleaned up debriefing in two hours." Said Hammond visibly not trying to laugh at his officers.
"Yes Sir" Responded Jack
"Dismissed."
A while later Jack was finally going to get the shower after the others had already finished. He had already changed and was just standing in a towel waiting for Danny to finish. Daniel walked out and grabbed a towel to cover his naked extremities.
"There you go Jack Enjoy."
Jack smiled a sad smile that did not meet his eyes went into the showers, inside he stripped off his towel and turned n the water, cascading down his back and shoulders he leaned his head against the wall. He sighed.
"How does she do it to me, I can never get her out of my mind. This whole damn thing is gonna DRIVE ME INSANE." He punched the wall denting it a little."
His mind went back through everything he had done for this planet, his friends- everything was left behind because of 'The good of the Mission' He was sick of it. He had started to feel this way a while ago perhaps even to the original sg-1 mission, but now things ahd gotten harder-the song from the radio in his car haunted him every second of the day. He could still see Sam in the passenger seat beside him humming to the words a smile on her face and a glow that could only be described as beautiful
He found himself whispering the words to himself.
"Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief,
Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?"
His mind was racing every thought every feeling about Samantha Carter ran through his mind, faster and faster soon there was the words and the thoughts as everything else was blanked out except her face in his Mind.
*Antarctica where they were huddled for warmth *
*The disease from the land of light *
*The repeating time frames *
*The time their minds were wiped *
*When he told her that he cares more than he should *
*When he almost lost her to the alien probe *
"I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?"
(He works hard)
He didn't hear a sweet female voice start along with him, he didn't hear the slight sniffling of the words and he didn't notice Sam walk up to just outside the showers.
*The time she lost him on Edora *
*The time of the mind wipe *
*The Za'tac thing *
*When he left to capture the NID *
*That alien probe reading my feelings for him *
" Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah
Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?"
Sam thoughts mirrored Jacks own, she had though of nothing except that song for the whole time and her own forbidden thoughts were strangling her mind. She didn't care all of the own thoughts were centred on the one man she truly loved.
" Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!
Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Jack Sighed again and finished his shower, he turned around wrapped the towel around his waist and walked out, for just a second he thought that he could smell Carter's shampoo. He closed his eyes rubbed them with the balls of his hands. He looked at the time and dressed in record time.
Just before he closed his locker he looked at the picture of him and Sam taken last year at a barbecue for base staff. He touched her face in the photo and whispered.
"I love you Sam." Those were the only words he could never say to her face and probably never would, he closed the door and left the room. From around the edge of a row of lockers Sam appeared.
"I love you too Jack. I always will." She whispered, she picked up the file she had left in her locker and left the room. Turning away from the door she sprinted down the corridor to get to the briefing room on time. Once she was round the corner Jack stepped out of the shadows.
"One Day Sam maybe one day." He said as he made his way to the briefing room.
The End
Story Notes: EMAIL: Themalk@hotmail.com
SPOILERS: Numourous episodes including Broca Divide, 100 days and entity.
SEASON:4 (Current one on Sky one in england I think)
CONTENT WARNING: Anxsty and hard on the characters
ARCHIVE: SJA, Heliopolis and anyone who wants it.
FEEDBACK: YYEESS
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Sond inspired me to write another songfic. Also have another in the works based on sa- wait and wait for it. I also am not of the 'other side of the fence persuation- just trying (albeit probably badly) to get the girls riled.
SPOILERS: Numourous episodes including Broca Divide, 100 days and entity.
SEASON:4 (Current one on Sky one in england I think)
CONTENT WARNING: Anxsty and hard on the characters
ARCHIVE: SJA, Heliopolis and anyone who wants it.
FEEDBACK: YYEESS
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Sond inspired me to write another songfic. Also have another in the works based on sa- wait and wait for it. I also am not of the 'other side of the fence persuation- just trying (albeit probably badly) to get the girls riled.
DISCLAIMER: All publicly recognisable characters, settings, etc, are the property of their respective owners. Any original characters and plots are the property of the author. No money is being made from this work. No copyright infringement is intended. ... [ read more ]